WHY ARE WE ALL SLAVES!WHAT IS THE PROBLEM IN YOUR LETTING IT OUT! COME OUT OF YOUR SHELLS. PEOPLE ARE THERE TO CON YOU. i AM HAPPY I AM NOT INTO THAT.I LOVE MY PARENTS.PRESSURE IS VERY STRONG. I LOVE MYSELF. love IS ALL AROUND US. i NEED SOME PARTNER.I CANT LIVE IN CELIBACY ANYMORE.I AM LIVING IN THE MOMENT. TRYING NOT TO WASTE TIME. The past makes me depressed. I am loosing control of my soul. i am not trying hard enough in life.I need to start living my life.My awareness level is low. I am finding it hard to focus. am suffering from schizophrenia.

I meet a lots of women and I have a lot of fun with them.
I am good-looking with a very open and funny personality, but there is a big catch. I am needy as hell and women can feel it, almost immediately.

It just happened again. I made a lot of mistakes, I pushed away forever by the
girl, I realized, I was in love with, and I might have loved unconditionally.
She does not even want to talk to me. She said: "go your own way, we will not
keep in touch".

Why did this happen? Because I project my own frustrations on those I love.

I feel like whenever I go to the DMV that I'm actually doing the correct thing--updating my address, keeping all those files up to date. Erg, well, I went today to update an address and the guy demanded my SS card--and the driver's handbook does not require that you show it! I asked him, "are you quite certain that I need it?", and he was like, "yeah, if you don't, you can't update your license."

Today I've woked up into a nightmare. At work, I can occasionally take short 15-20 minute sleeping breaks if people don't come in, no-one bothering me. Before the break, the entire day seemed to work pretty well, aside from a work-mate of mine that decided it's a good idea to dramatically leave the room since the air-conditioner wasn't to her liking, and I refused lifting the temperature to Insanely-high-C'.

Dammit! i'm hating everyone at the moment...
there is nothing that has gone in my favor today
the forked up gala at park had a quarrel, and took his shirt to fight wid me, i didnt start punching his bullied freaking face, and now i regret that why didnt i do it!
then I had a disagrreement with atleast 4-5 friends... and then Family too because of this stupid mobile who is almost useless and always make me angry when i use it to text anyone.. Why the hell is everything not going in my favor..

Today I decided that I would finally stop biting my nails after 23 years of doing so. As a trainee chef, it's hardly hygienic so I bought some special nail polish that makes your nails taste gross. Unfortunately I forgot that I'd tried it out this afternoon and went to work with it still on. I guarantee I'll never bite my nails again though, not if the customers' faces are anything to go by regarding the taste!

As a bit of a Goth, I've had black hair for a few years but a professor told me that I'd need "normal" hair to get a job. As I have an interview tomorrow, I tried to dye it red at home today but managed to turn it purple instead. Looking even less normal I headed to the local salon, where a "hairdresser" managed to turn it blue. I'm $90 down, look like an extra out of a Harry Potter movie and look even less normal than before. Talk about bad hair day!

I got a Saturday job in an antiques place and turned up for my first day today. My boss was examining an old rug with disdain and told me someone was coming in to "steal it off me for two fifty". He was out when the guy came in for the rug but I got what he said for it. I didn't understand why the guy was laughing until my boss came back and fired me on the spot. How was I to know he meant $250 and not $2.50? - Dammit!

I had a day off work today and decided to do a little gardening, not that I know much about it but I'm awesome with the trimmer. After mowing the lawn, I moved onto pruning the hedge... or what I thought was the hedge. It turned out to be next door's prize fruit bushes that earn them thousands of dollars every year. Whoops!

In an effort to save money, I decided to service my own car this year and looked up how to do it on a DIY site for women. I started by topping up the oil and antifreeze and worked my way from there. Unfortunately, I looked at the diagram upside down and mixed the two holes up. My effort to save money has landed me with a monster bill so next time I'll head straight for the garage.